Write a story based on a line from a movie. (June 28, 2025, Out of the Box Prompt.)
“The worst part is I’m starting to forget. I have to constantly make myself remember her. Every day.” (Ricardo Morales from “The Secret in their Eyes”.)

How can you forget the person you love? How can I have looked you in the eye morning after morning, kissed you good night and now, your name is all but a cypher. A code I cannot break. Everything I do, and yet I cannot conjure up the memories of you as I once did.
You are my love. In my notepad – the one where I jot my most important information into – I write your name over and over until it looks like a meaningless scribble, scrawled letters without any context.
I’m too young for this forgetting disease. But they told me it’s not the brain plaque like some folks get. It’s something different, and, of course, the doctors have explained it to me in a thousand different ways. Each time, I think I understand and I write it down, but when I try to read it later, none of it makes sense.
I curl my hand into a fist and slam it onto my desk. It’s frustrating. I feel like a child, or worse, a lab rat.
Telling myself I’ll remember makes no difference. I always end up forgetting. Your name is just empty syllables. Even when I say it, it is ash in my mouth.
I want to curse, but all the words are the same. I curl my hand into a fist and slam it onto my desk. When I look into a mirror, I scarcely recognize the woman I have become. When I pass you in the hall, you are a stranger. Weeping, I beg you to remind me who you are, who we were.
So, you do.
You don’t just say our names, but you tell the history of us. The way you kiss me like the very act of kissing would braid our souls together. You tell me how though you always loved me, you never married me.
At this, I feel my brows furrow.
You explain, “I never wanted to steal your wild. You were a flower I did not want to pluck from the earth.”
I feel myself smile. I feel myself soften.
I wish I could let go because even in forgetting, I still find pieces of you I remember.
Often, you take me into your arms and dance with me, whisper about the scent of the seasons. Spring – honeysuckle. Summer – fresh vanilla. Fall – cinnamon and bon fires. Winter – impending snow storms. You say my scent is your favorite.
That I smell of autumn. I am a woman of cinnamon sticks and bon fires.
But I do not know why. I never wear perfume.
Yet you breathe me in as though I will save you. I begin to forget you.
One day, I struggle for breath. It’s hard to remember. These basic tasks. This remembering.
I gasp. The breath is fleeting. The memories are going, too. I want to say goodbye, good night, but I can’t even remember the breathing.
Eleven years is a long time. You’ll forgive me, won’t you, my love?
We watched the sun rise like a film strip from a movie, drinking Darjeeling tea, every morning. Every moment felt like magic. Her hair, like cinnamon and bon fires. Her skin left me breathless. Enchanted.
We whispered our secrets into the bottom of the kettle and into the shape of each other’s ears, like forming mists and watching them drift away. One morning, after telling my sins, I knotted her a dandelion ring, the only promise I ever knotted her. I asked forever.
Her eyes glittered with tears as she accepted.
It wasn’t marriage, but it was love. I thought when I said forever, I’d wake up with wrinkles etched in our faces. Eleven years is a long time.
She’s been gone, and graves are unyielding, unforgiving. The worst part is I’m starting to forget. I have to constantly make myself remember her.
Every day.
Yet she was the one with the forgetting disease.
My mind is slowing, wading through the molasses-pain of grief, yet the anguish is thick and blurs the details. I wish I could remember, but maybe forgetting is safer. Numbness is safe. There’s a reason surgeons anaesthetize.
But I pull out our photo books. I find the videos I made and listen to her voice. Her lilting accent like a song. Her eyes haunt me, begging me love, love, love, even in memories I scarcely remember.
Forgetting feels safer.
Was she always crying out for help? Was she always begging me for answers?
I wish I could let go because even in forgetting, I still find pieces of her I remember.
Isabelle Palerma
This short story is entirely my own content – no A.I. used to create this.
Wow…that is heart wrenching! That’s one of my biggest fears; losing my memories. Without memories, are we still us?
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I fear this too, and I so hope we are. I lost my mind a few summers ago. It was agonizing. I actually think I put you through part of it, if I remember correctly. And yet, it’s so fuzzy some of it. It was terrifying.
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Yes, I felt so horrible for you, because there was nothing I could do to help!
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It’s okay, my friend. I survived and came out stronger.
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“I wish I could remember, but maybe forgetting is safer. Numbness is safe. There’s a reason surgeons anaesthetize.”
I would not call it an argument, but a wise woman once told me that to feel is a gift- I have trouble agreeing. If it is a gift, I lament I would consider gifting these aches and pangs to a tree if I could. These deep and dull pangs to the soil to cleanse them of their emptiness.
A wise woman once inquired of the time past since these words had been visited. These words are all I have as close as one may get. I visit, but usually quietly without a sign of my visit. Like visiting a shrine- that’s all I have. This altar of moments in time where another soul has created and left the evidence in black and white. I visit and sometimes am comforted while other times am moved to tears as these words are all I have.
If feeling so strongly is a gift, I would consider gifting these aches, pains, and longing to the soil and the trees as I do not know what to do with these swirling things that toil within anymore. These words are all I have… these shrines- I do not know how to find solace anymore here only words I can no longer trace. I vist, I do, but usually silently so as not to kick up dust. These words are all I have and I visit the empty rooms seeking blindly and frantically something I never found to begin with. These words I touch through a screen do not guide they have no texture they are digital not analog. You can not touch or hold them not like you can paper.
You asked why I no longer visit. I believe I never left this maze. I haunt these pages longing and seeking a home I never met. I haunt each work it is the closest I can reach. If you could, would you please take these longing aches… please? I dont know what to do with this grief that has settled behind my sternum. Where is its glittering bow?
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