So many fractures
like little fault lines
where our broken bits corresponded
& through the galaxies
where we touched.
I still think about
the constellations & galaxies
our bodies contain
(and wonder why
we crashed to Earth
as a home planet).
I want to get lost
in the stars
My eyes burn dully–
twin lanterns that have been flickering
(Every time I swallow, I taste kerosene.)
nothing but darkness on the horizon.
A storm churns clouds in the haunted sky,
& I shudder
from the bitter chill.
(It’s this cold that makes my spine jerk and spasm.)
In the distance,
I no longer smell the burning leaves of autumn-
I smell smoldering corpses.
Mouth clamped shut,
this taste is the copper of blood.
(I had been biting my tongue so long,
I have forgotten the taste of my own words.)
Ear tilted toward the skies,
thunder roars a warning cry,
and I am yet to heed its warning.
A thousand men lie dying at my feet,
and it is my heart that is the battleground.
(Do they not realize this is a metaphor,
and I would rather taste bile than my own bitter heartbreak?)
I feel like I belong in an Edvard Munch painting or something by Magritte,
but do you see me in a gilded frame hanging in the Museum of Modern Art?
My own heartbreak is taste familiar to me,
and I would rather linger with the devil I do know
than the devil I do not.
The devil resides in a land
where the damned smell burning corpses all day,
and though the odor rouses a certain sense of familiarity,
I would rather run than fight the inevitable.
Former friends and lovers, those I once knew,
are now nothing but ghosts.
(Perhaps they are ghosts because my memory falters,
maybe they exist on another plane of consciousness
for me to wake out of my fog and think me the ghost.)
A dense fog of sadness spreads its misty fingers over me
in that lonesome field.
(Clutching at my heart, that chill that spoke to me.
My spine jerks and spasms.)
This frostbite burns everything it consumes-
a conflagration of icicles going up in flame,
like stalagmites crafted of ice & fire.
The mere sight of it is enough
to drive a sane person to lunacy.
As I take my first step plunging forward,
I shuffle through the fire and ice
Little bo Peep trembles under a parasol,
tears cascading down her cheeks,
“Where have my sheep gone?
Why do my eyes burn so dully?
Where has my happiness gone?”
A bleak day to discover paradise-
the muddy sky will lose all its meaning.
We have lost what we are searching for.
Loneliness is our only path to salvation.
It is in our suffering that we find bliss.
(Amantes sunt amuntes-
lovers are lunatics
as this barren landscape is all we know now.)
These twin lanterns
that were once my eyes
have lost all light.
We must trudge forward
& hope someday,
this suffering shall guide us
(toward our bliss).
My heart has been wallpapered in love letters,
and its hinge that was once rusty and worn
now gleams like new.
(When we exchanged glances that evening,
you provided me with a heart transplant–
trading in the antiquated
for something fresh
still in its packaging.)
The peppermint scent of you inflates my lungs.
(The inhalation is so much sweeter
for having known you.)
Your breath curls around my ear, warming the core of me.
I taste your passion as my lips lock onto yours
like a zipper catching.
Your whispers blade through me,
sending shivers crumbling down my back.
Romance is a beautiful death
(one in which I don’t mind dying daily).
Your eyes are as turquoise blue as the seas
& I never thought that I would feel at home
in a sailboat.
My quarters have been wallpapered in love letters.
When my stomach quivers,
I don’t know if it’s anticipation or nerves.
I used to fear intimacy-the dark corners
and hushed voices.
The taste of nightfall & midnight always suited me
before you came around.
(It is the glow of constellations that I see spark
from your own starry, starry glances.)
You are like a painting by van Gogh,
and I am not one to roam the Saint Louis Art Museum,
searching for love
(yet I would wander every corridor
if it meant seeing your face at the end of the hall).
-painting “Cafe Terrace at Night”, 1888, Vincent van Gogh-
Write a poem in the form of a monologue delivered by someone who is dead. Not a famous person, necessarily-perhaps a remembered acquaintance from your childhood.
(Prompt by Maureen Thorson)
You take life too seriously.
It’d be much more fun
if you remember to laugh.
(There’s so much to cry about,
what if we laughed instead?)
Chase the white rabbit.
This isn’t Wonderland,
but we can still wonder.
Try to hold onto that feeling
when the Christmas lights twinkle
as you breathe in deep,
as you speed past,
time speeds up
(when you don’t have much of it left).
Try to hold the magic inside of your lungs,
inhale as though it were a Turkish Gold.
None of us get out alive.
We might as well sing off-key
and laugh like tonight’s the last night
Take my guitar and strum a melody
to tell you the things that I could never say.
(I believe she’ll explain it to you
One day when I’m gone.)
You’ll remember my name, my laugh,
but don’t think me a fool
because I’ve proven myself to be much more
Laugh like tonight’s the last night
and tell the girl you love her
(because I forgot to say it
before it was too late).
-inspired by Edgar Lee Masters’ Spoon River Anthology
Pretend a person or a moment in your life is a moving box you’re unpacking as you move into a new home. What do you unpack? How tenderly? Where do you place it? What do you realize you no longer need? What do you realize you have lost?
(Prompt by Todd Dillard)
Gingerly, I pull the packing tape back
and tug the cardboard flaps apart.
(Like wings, they spread.)
The scent of White Diamonds,
floral and sweet,
wafts over me, reminding me
of a grandmother’s embrace.
I remember burying myself into her
as she felt like unconditional love.
The way a grandmother’s hazel eyes are soft.
I unpack birthday cards
with whisper-thin penmanship
vowing “love always” and prayers.
Gently, I pull out the nail lacquer
she always used to paint my fingernails.
My grandmother was a home to me when I felt adrift.
I remember the way she always turned on a light
when I was reading in her den.
She’d marvel at my stories, even when
my words were bland.
I take out the prayer books and the holy medals.
I unfold the comforter from her bed,
the thick one that buried us like snow.
I remove her vinyl of the soundtrack to Sound of Music
(and in my mind, I hear her trilling arias with Julie Andrews,
her warble beautiful and pure).
I smell her hand lotion and recall the blue eyeshadow
applied every day
(until even the dementia taking that away).
Her memories have been packed away
It has been eleven years since I heard her voice last-
I remember that night in the memory care ward,
that last night,
she turned to me, her hazel eyes watery,
underweight, and leaning on a walker,
and she said to me,
“Izzy, you look so pretty tonight.”
I lost someone who cared for me
and loved me unconditionally.
Like a leaf blowing away in autumn
(delicate and fragile).
Remember the afternoon we picked you up
from that foul hospital with the smell of shit and piss
and I sang to you a jazz lullaby,
thinking you were dying.
I hope someday to be your princess
If the stars fade and the ink from my hipbone vanishes,
will I still see you home?
You’re no stranger to constellations,
and just when I thought moods were mercurial,
you shock me
with your steadfastness.
Every breath began with you,
I wonder if they will terminate with you as well.
Poetry often takes us to strange places-to feelings and actions that are hard to express except through the medium of a poem. To the “liminal”, in other words-a place or sensation that exists at or on both sides of a boundary or threshold, neither one thing or the other, but something betwixt and between.
(Prompt by Maureen Thorson)
Abandoned and neglected
(in decay from misuse),
you swear changes underway.
Making promises you can’t keep.
-image courtesy of @SpaceLiminalBot on Twitter.
Write a poem about your own road not taken-about a choice of yours that has “made all the difference” and what might have happened had you made a different choice.
(Prompt by Maureen thorson)
Don’t fall in love
at first sight,
you silly stupid girl.
into those magnetic eyes
words that tumble out
(like falling boulders).
They will land on your heart
and shatter it.
When he says “love”,
it’s a vacuous word,
but you made the mistake
of looking into those magnetic eyes.
You brought him into your home.
Offered him refuge and comfort
from a cold, cruel world.
(Not recognizing the frozen hostility
from his lungs and fists.)
When he was on top of you,
he begged for you to tell him
(like it was wedding vows).
You whispered it
(like it was a secret).
You waited nine months
what the secret hatched.
And your heart splintered and cracked
only a hundred and twenty-two times
along the way.
Abandoned something pure,
relinquished the first thing that loved
but what if…
what if? what if?
What if you had been selfish
and kept that whispered secret
bundled to your chest
(like a trinket from a relationship
What if you had held it
to your heart
and allowed it to suckle from your breast?
just like hearts (and drywall),
shatter to dust and leave holes
that need to be spackled over.
No one could predict a tornado,
but now, they map the changing weather
and warn you
when storms rumble through.
(Warnings that could very well save your life…
-inspired by Robert Frost’s “The Road not Taken”